His Daughter Died Young

Take a dream
And stab it
Smash it
Kill it
Take a dream
And break it
Maim it
Rape it
Hit it and cut it with broken glass
Thrown against the wall
Don't know don't care
A drunken blur
Too caught up in the frenzied hate
To wonder of the aftermath
The morning after
The hangover
The erratic keys of Handel's Allemande
That she used to play in A minor
Or was it C?

Take a dream
And run your tongue through it
Soft fingertips memorizing its every stanza
Pounding heartbeat 'neath quivering hands
Whispered secrets dreamlike, wilting free
But that was at the beginning
Beginning of everything
Before the strain of pianissimo
Was silenced after a pounding cresendo
Culminating in a trill and coda
Treble clef becomes bass
And Da Capo al FIne
So we start again until the end

And remember her last moments with ease

Raw emotion falling up from the notes
As tears reciprocate down onto the keys
Reality slips into the swirl of the clef
It does not matter
All alone
Alone in the universe
With Handel's Allemande in A minor
And shards of broken dreams
Or liquor glass

Intoxication
Amber ale
Too much for my fingers to handle alone
Rush of feeling
Exposed
Naked
Skinless and alone behind the bars of the staff
And the notes go on
Who is playing them with my fingertips?
It feels so right
But so wrong

Sanity leaves me
I do not care
It has been gone for a while
The sharps and flats
Jerk me like the strings of a puppet
The swirl of their cloak enclose me
I do not care
For all is calm now
Inside my cerebral tomb

I have secretly died
Though my life goes on
They do not know
Nor do they care
And why should they?
It is not theirs to fear
They are the sheltered folk
Sheltered from the power within the lines
From all that artistry has to offer

A blessing
Gifted children
So talented, so young
A curse
Disturbed mind
There is no reason here for tears
"Why do you cry?"
Burn away the outer skin of soul
Expose your naked self
Siphon away the blood and wonder
Wonder why
Why gifted minds disturbed

Youth die old when the soul can feel
The emotions recorded in audio for centuries
Simple visuals that are read by the sky
They cannot understand that there is no reason
She simply fell apart
But you would too if you secretly knew
That these words are telling you to.